Where does the time go

Wow when i started to blog i never imagined that it would be months in between when i would actually sit down and write , but none the less thats exactly whats happened. Where does the time escape to, the days of summer are slowly windeling away and fall is approaching and sadly i feel as tho i havent had time to enjoy them. Isnt that pretty much the norm for us women tho, do we ever take the time to enjoy the little things when there is so much all around us that has us moving full steam ahead barely looking from side to side. I mean granted, I personally take on that role whole heartedly most days, but there are times when being a working, sport chauffering, party picking up mom literally bites. UGH!!!! venting venting venting..ok done:)...
So now that i have vented just a lil, I have to say im proud of myself tonight. After months of good intentions all up in my head, I actually laced the running shoes and went for a 30 minuete run. Yup it wasnt pretty, gone are the days when i would run at a respectable pace and feel comfortable in my body when doing so. No more, my body is not my own, this isnt my body, middle age has somehow come and invaded it and frig its taken right over. Its time for me to take it back now. So thats what i'm doing!! Thats my plan, my course of action will be slow and tedious but i have to do it. I have three beautiful daughters that i want to be able to enjoy recreational activites with instead of watching them from the sidelines. I think its lofty goal but really if I cant move forward with out some sort of goal, it pretty much means i'll be standing still, and frankly i'm bored of this view..it hasnt been pretty for quite sometime, at least not to me. I think somehow today I had an aha moment, I'm not really sure why but I just did. So lets hope that its the beginning of something good, and that i can reclaim some of my past youth or at the very least my thighs , its not too much to ask is it?

my best friend...

So initially i thought , hmmm wow therapeutic to actually say whats inside my head outloud on here and well those that i dont have the chance to actually talk to on a daily basis, now will know what is going on in the Johnston household..Like everything i set out to do it just kind of fell way side..Life took over and as usual am tredding barely above water just managing to keep a float. Then I wonder how come im barely keeping things together, shit whats wrong with me, I mean i try to be super women but i just dont seem to measure up most days. I honestly think teenagers suck the life right out of you at times, so thats my story and I'm gonna run with that...
So as off topic as i have gone, when i think of remarkable women that i look up too and aspire to be like, I think of my best friend Marie.
Marie is stunning, she is the mother of three teenagers, has this remarkable husband, and still is able to jet set the world doing what she loves doing. Shes a journalist for SVT Tv in Stockholm, and if she reads this she will get pissed at me for writing about her but so what.. As women do we ever take the time to say wow you are everything i wish i was, or you are truly remarkable, or do you know what..at the end of the day you are just a good person. No we don't, we measure our failures against their successes, and I'll admit the extra weight that i have put on over the years is definately not something i want to share with my best friend, especially since she looks fantastic. I'm shallow that way, I admit it, work in progress i guess. I was suppossed to spend my 4oth birthday with Marie, we have been friends for twenty years lol wow...The plan was to escape to Greece just us and pretend we were twenty again ..Well im now 41 approaching 42 and its one of my biggest regrets not spending that birthday with her. There is always a hockey game or a teenager that needs to get somewhere and i can find a million excuses i guess why i didnt. When it comes down to it maybe i was afraid to try and find 20 again, maybe ive become too comfortable in this 4o year old lifestyle. maybe i'll go when i lose the 2o lbs i want to loose before i even consider going anywhere. Anyways i hope I muster up the courage, and i hope we make it to Greece before we turn 50 lol. I miss my Swedish girlfriend..I miss the vodka, I miss the crazy antics..but most of all i miss the feeling of being young and those days in Boston, Maine, and Europe..those where the best
Skol to us!!!

Surviving Prom

So i was a prom mom last year...i liked being a prom mom..My oldest Jordan went, much to our disbelief..I never thought she would , was almost resigned to the fact that she wouldnt..So when she came to me and told me she was going i was thrilled..We did the whole nine yards..the dress the nails the hair the jewellery , it was a good day ...She even let me take photos(which never happens) and i do believe there might have been a smile or two..Jordan had an absolute blast...not at prom but at the after party in wasaga..saw lots of photos of this , i do believe this might have been the time she booted me off her facebook friends list..and put me on a need to know basis..not sure...Anyways so here we are again..its prom.!!!! No not Madisons but Madison would like to attend the after party in wasaga beach with her best friend Megan...It is Megans prom..she is leaving next year and so im kinda torn on whether i should let her go ..The beginning of the week i was like absolutely not lol and now im like hmmm well maybe..Megans mom seemed quite confident that Megan would look out for Madi and honestly i am quite confident she would too..Im not stupid , i know theres underage drinking, and stupid behavior, and Im not one of those parents with their head in the sand thinking my daughter wont partake in any stupidness that goes on..she will, its Madi she always acts first thinks later... Its just we kind of got her on track with everything after her confidence had been squashed and she was filled with way to much self doubt..Megan amongst other people helped her with that...So i unno do i let her go?? Would I have gone at 16?? Yes i would have gone at 16..i had a boyfriend that played in the N.H.L at 16 , guranteed i was probably worse places...Did it teach me anything...? yes it taught me how to handle myself with all sorts of people in all sorts of situations and it taught me adaptability...So yes i guess i should let her go..it better not turn around and bite me in the A** tomorrow though...I also have to say , she made me proud yesterday when she brought her friend Megan in and single handidly did her prom hair and makeup..thought she was biting off more than she could chew but she proved me wrong..Megan looked beautiful and Madison was happy to be a part of her day

So i ask myself why not

Im not really sure my reasoning behind blogging...it started out in my head as a way to keep my family and friends up to date on whats goin on in the johnston houselhold..I used to be awesome at christmas cards, recent photos , even took pride in the art of letter writing..So what the hell happened..Life, sports, chauffering, referring, and just never enough hours in the day. Then my cousin Joanne started blogging and im not going to lie , she made me feel like wow someone else is dealing with the same parental crap i am on a day to day basis..I think i read her blogs and its somewhat therapeutic, so thank you Jo!!!!My oldest daughter Jordan is an amazingly gifted writer so i asked her to jump in periodically and scribe some things..I may use this as a venting tool and i will apologize ahead of time if i offend lol ..im usually pretty good about not doing that but ya just never know.. Mostly i will just bring you up to speed on the happenings in our chaotic at the best of times house..So this is short and not really anything about anything but i have a mountain of laundry , rugs to vacum, and bathrooms to clean all before i head to work..gotta love being a woman...oh and just for a heads up...i dont care if the pictures i post of myself are old..too bad i happened to like my thighs way better in the 90's so until my thighs and i come to positive terms..the pictures will remain old..with a warning objects may or may not appear as they really are...